&;I smile at you because I know it kills you,<3'

my goals to achive over this summer.<3

time: 8:00 p.m
status: FBF$<3
mood: pick me up, :/
hair: loose curles
 
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just finished cleanin my room. pretty bummed out. went for a five mile today with Dean. tired as fuck. took too many xanax last night, :l

don't mind.<3 just me ranting.

time: 6 o'clock
status: off to dinner with my bae for my birthday<3
mood: feeling old as hell.<3
hair: my long black hair is down with loose curls.
 
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I looked at myself in the mirror once last time. I looked taller because of my nude heels. My dress was just a tad above my knees. The light color made my tan even better. I smiled and tousled my hair then grabbed my phone. I put on a coat of pink lipstick then some nivea. I spritzed myself with juicy and breathed out. I could smell mint and chopstick. I texted Cooper telling him I was ready and waited downstairs.<3

time: 7 o' clock.
status: I hate getting mad at you.</3 Birthday is tomorrow<3 babysitting till the twenty first<3
mood: idek.
hair: curled, bangs braided.
 
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I crossed the room feeding Evangeline her bottle. She had been a crab all day. Poor baby. I sighed and sat down on my bed with her in my arms. I was thinking about going out tonight, dinner with my best friend. I wasn't sure though. For my birthday I'm getting a tattoo and my back dimples pierced. I smiled. nineteen. Wow I'm getting old. I rocked Evangeline to sleep and set her in her crib. I looked at the mirror and adjusted my tank top, it sat right about my belly button ring. I had been tanning alot lately so I'm getting really dark. I smiled at how good my body looked. "Damn," I thought.

Name: Gavin Cedric Castanon
Age they got their girlfriend pregnant: 20
Current Age: 20
Bio: one hundred percent Italian. british accent though. comes from a wealthy family but holds his own job as a model. tan. flawless. He used to party all day every day. He now has to settle down for his kids.
Girl they got pregnant: Loraine Aliyah Kushman
Do they see their kid: yes
Relationship Status: single
Child: Jermaine Jaden Castanon and Luna Loretta Castanon, Jermaine stays with me. Luna stays with Loraine.
Model: francisco lachowski

time: 4:00 p.m
status: studying for my exams. aced 3 of them so far<3
mood: sober<3
hair: bangs braided back, black thick locks are wavy.
 
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I clicked my acrylic nails against my Starbucks tea and checked my phone. I had a message from Dean that I had decided against replying too. I had been getting agitated ever since Taylor and him got into a fight the first time. I really should stop caring about their problems. I sighed and sipped slowly on my tea and re read through my english essay. I had been sober for two days now and I felt pretty good. I'm going to try to settle down, I don't know how it's going to work. But hopefully it will be a good outcome.<3

time: 6 o' clock
Status: babysitting Giovanni's daughter Evangeline.
Hair: down and straightened.
 
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I had been sober all day, from everything. And to be honest, I felt pretty damn good. I am probably slowing down with everything soon. It's my senior year. Next year I'm in college. Next year, I need to buckle my ass down. Settle down... I ended up not going to Hawaii... there is no point in going on a vacation with your best friend when you guys never hangout because of differences on issues. I sighed and finished up the last part of my essay then looked at Evangeline. She was sleeping soundlessly in her crib. She was an adorable baby. I wanted a baby so bad. And I wanted a baby with the same person for a while now. I smiled sadly and shook the thought away. "You would never have a family together. So stop thinking about it," I whispered to myself and took another bite of oatmeal. I fixated my eyes on the television. Mean Girls was playing. I never really cared for the movie but I watched it anyway. Anything to get me unfocused on my phone.

Gavin sat in his window seat and smoked his square. He looked at the text Loraine had sent him, he had been looking at it for the past two days. She had tried calling but he never answered. "fuck," he kept repeating the word over. Maybe the baby wasn't his... I mean, she is one to party. He looked at the xanex in his hand, popped it into his mouth and swallowed hard. "fuck"....

time: 5:00 p.m.
status: sitting poolside with a smoothie.<3 hml. :)
mood: blowed.
hair: down and wavy<3
 
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I adjust my reading glasses and finish the last few pages of Harry Potter and smile. "I am such a nerd," I heard myself say aloud. Thank god no one knew. They'd be creeped out. I sighed and tousled my long, wavy hair and twisted my monroe. I took a bite of my oatmeal smoothie and checked my phone. Dean was texting me about what to pack on the latest trip and Cooper was wanting to know what I wanted for dinner. "Bdubs sounds good. I like wings<3" I texted back and set my phone down smiling. Whatever would I do if there were no boys in this world.<3